the way I see it, “black pride” (or any sort of “minority” pride movement) means “I am proud of who I am DESPITE those who have told me and my people that whiteness is superior” while “white pride” means “I am proud of who I am BECAUSE whiteness is superior” and that’s why it’s ok to say one but not the other
Drake wouldn’t treat me like this
I don’t want to feel this.
As I drink cheap wine and find comfort in the pajama pants of an ex, I realize that at 21 I no longer like the person that I am.
That’s tough, but it’s honest.
And maybe my unhappiness is karma. Repayment for every poor decision I’ve made within the past six months. Who’s to say.
I have a bad habit of replaying events that I can’t change or more honestly, that I won’t change because I’m prideful. I’m not always the victim, but in the heat of the moment I am. I’m good at that. As a villain I look good publicly, but when I go to lay my head down at night I’m reminded of my destruction. None of that matters though because the public’s interpretation of me is positive; i’ll always be able to replace.
I’m not sure who I am anymore which is frustrating considering the numerous titles that are tucked away in my bag of tricks. I’m a girlfriend then I’m an ex. I’m a writer, a student and a waitress and everything in-between, it’s becoming a blur. While I’ve been relentlessly pushing my peers to be the best versions of themselves, I haven’t bothered to change. I’ve been recycling past versions of myself that are easy to sell.
Let’s be honest, I have the capability to change, but not the discipline.
Brandi ft. Slum Village | Dwele (2008)
Punch strong love you’ve got me slowing down my pace